Well, good afternoon all my Fellow compulsive overeaters! I am a grateful compulsive overeater!! I have been coming to Program for 5 full years now. Do I have recovery? What does it look like to me? How to I judge how good my Program is working in my life? So many questions - and not many answers or rather only just two -- my HP. My Higher Power allows me to see what I didn't see before. The actor - the screenwriter - the director - all the BIG BOOK tells me what I did in my life to make it absolutely miserable for myself and others...I was a wreck. I'm not today. Just today, in fact, a Fellow commented on how much she has witnessed my personal and spiritual growth. Is life perfect? Of course not! Am I perfect? Hell, no!! But, I am able to live one day at a time with a peace-filled consciousness of what my character defects are, what triggers them, and what I need to do to move forward and become the person I wish to be -- 'that which God intended." Today, I was abrupt, angry, and insensitive of others while 'helping' with homework! This is a BIG trigger for me - I become afraid - afriad I can't/won't be of assistance -- what does that say about 'me'? Self-centeredness. Codependency. Inpatience. Selfl-Willed. I have already made my amends (change). Thanks be to God. Today I accept my imperfections as gifts. My eyes do not tell the truth at what a healthy serving is - I know intellectrrually, but practically, my fears of '"is this enough" can haunt me when my Program is not in practice. Today, I was given an opportunity to practice, learn more about myself, and move toward a spiritual-based centeredness. I am a grateful recovering compulsive overeater. Thank you for the priveledge of allowing me to share my thoughts w/you today. Peace be with you.

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